Showing posts with label degradation/humiliation. Show all posts
Showing posts with label degradation/humiliation. Show all posts

Sunday, August 15, 2010

Bondage





I was going to write a big long post about this scene, but a picture is worth a thousand words, right?

Nah, I'm joking. I have a post for y'all.

Friday night, I got home from work around 6. I've been talking to this guy, M, for a while now, just talking. He's a rope top and one of my peers, among other things. He'd asked me to play with him a while ago, but I had declined at the time. This past week I decided that I am now interested, so I IMed him and told him that. His schedule was tight, so we decided "why not now, what the hell," and did some negotiation over IM. Then I changed and met him at his apartment, which is a five-minute walk from mine.

After we'd gone through his toybox and gotten me all trussed up, as you've seen, he decided to toy with me. He untied my hands and laid me on my back. At this point we were making out a bit, playing with a bullet vibe he had. Whenever I called him sir, like I was supposed to, I'd get a shot of the vibrator. I get squirmy when I'm aroused, so I was kind of writhing around his bed at this point, pretty blissed out.

But then he reached over and grabbed something else. He laid a coin on the back of one of my hands, which was holding the vibrator to my clit, and my arm near my elbow, which was up over my head.

"So. If these coins fall off, you'll get some punishment," he said. "Do you understand?"

"Yes."

"Yes what?"

"Yes, sir."

He pulsed the vibrator, and I tried not to squirm too much. "Good girl. And what do you think about this sort of predicament?"

I swallowed. "I think it's rather a pain in the ass, sir." (though not enough of a pain in the ass to safeword, just enough to talk back :p)

"You think it's what? Why would you say something like that? I'm a very nice person, I wouldn't do anything mean to you!"

I smirked a little. It was funny, because M is a totally nice guy when he's not sceneing, too (if he wasn't nice, of course, I wouldn't've let him tie me up). Just, apparently, when he's topping he enjoys being... "a controlling, aggressive person" were his words, I think. ;p

"Just for that, I'm going to do this." He balanced a second coin on top of the two I already had, and then moved to put a small stack of them on my chin.

"How many--" I started to say, then stopped, because if I moved my mouth...!

"Yes?"

Silence.

"What were you going to say? Speak up!"

"How many coins are there-- oh shit" I said, as they tumbled onto the bed.

...somehow I managed to actually avoid getting punished. That, or he wasn't actually going to punish me, which was a mindfuck and then some!



Next, we played a game called "how good is Arel at giving head when she's got a vibrator on her pussy?" Well, okay, that's my name for it. I told M that I'd be happy to give him head, and when he mentioned putting a vibrator to me at the same time, I said "no, then it'd be a terrible blowjob, because I get all melty and incoherent when I'm being pleasured. I can't focus on other things."

And he said "you don't think I'd have fun with that?" And I was like oh yeah, some meanie tops get off on that sort of thing. Typical me, thinking thoroughly inside the box and wanting to please.

It was a good night.

I had further adventures the next night, stay tuned!

Sunday, July 11, 2010

Humiliation/Degradation

The other day I added "curious about degradation" to my fetlife list. It's been something I've been mulling over lately.

Pseudonymous Dom foisted a game of Columns (a strategy game) on me the other day. I'd never played before, and lost spectacularly. I hate losing games. Losing means that I am not competent at whatever game it is, that the other person is better and I have to recognize that. It's embarrassing. It emphasizes a power differential, in a way, between me and whomever I'm playing with. With my siblings, this situation is kind of weird. With a Dom I'm currently fucking, on the other hand...

And then, last night when I was a little drunk (or maybe a lot drunk, I'm not sure), I wandered into this IRC channel I hang out in. Lately that chan has been hearing a lot about my sex life, so I was blathering about how I wanted to get laid but couldn't because I was on vacation. This guy who was new to the chan, who I assume to be around my age, was hitting on me. We bantered for a while, I said some stupid stuff to my ex, and went to bed. I didn't think much of flirting with that guy.

Today, I log in, and said guy is there, pinging me repeatedly and annoyingly. We have the following exchange:

19:53 Arel: Dropkick: so who are you again?
19:53 Dropkick: MSPA dude
19:53 Ginger: The one who's going to DC.
19:53 Ginger: And isn't kinky.
19:53 Arel: ginger, hahahahaha
19:53 Arel: that's right.
19:53 Dropkick: right
19:53 Dropkick: that was me last night
19:53 Arel: I remember!
19:54 Dropkick: I'm sure you do Miss BDSM Bottom
19:55 Arel: I actually identify as a sub, thank you very much :p
19:55 Dropkick: I'm just taking the reference of the opposite of what you requested for in a partner, Arel

This turned me on, so of course the first thing I did was intellectualize it. :p He was talking down to me, and was basically pointing out that he knew some information that I didn't. AND he was making me feel silly and stupid while referencing a time when I'd been horny and foggy-minded and vulnerable.

See, like, I don't think I'd want to be put in a truly humiliating situation, but a little bit of it, like being put in my place or being made to feel helpless, so far seems to be sexy! I will keep an eye out for similar situations in the future.