Craving

If I'm reading a story that has an induction in it, I'm either masturbating to it, or reading along to see if it puts me under. I almost always do the former, but sometimes I'm just overwhelmed with this desire to feel hypnotized, this burning need to be made mindless and obedient and sleepy, and the type of porn I'm into generally fits the bill.

After experiencing actual hypnosis and control from a 'tist who knows what he's doing, I'm feeling like that, but moreso. Not constantly, but if I get to thinking about it too much, or even if I start reading stories to distract me, I get, er, distracted with thoughts of things I'd like to have him do to me.

It's not unlike the way I felt about sex that one time when I was ovulating, actually. But when my focus is hypnosis it has much more of a submissive, begging kind of quality to it; it's less of a sexually agressive feeling.

In any case, it's not like I'm not going to get my wishes. AmHypnotic and I have done some negotiation for further play, and that will probably happen over skype later this week. And of course, there's the hypno play party this saturday, which I am super excited for!

But it's only tuesday! sigh!