more katy perry

So, this "ET" song she's got out on the radio (youtube, lyrics). It is a Very Bad Song. And not the "needs a spanking" sort of bad. :p It's baaaaad. The metaphor is really heavy-handed, relies on stereotypes and buzzwords, and is stretched past the point where it's useful. By the second verse, I'm like, "okay, katy perry, WE GET IT. you are having sex with a very strange guy!"

But at the same time, the song's toootally a guilty kinky pleasure for me. The bits about "wanna be a victim?" ho yeah, can I ever identify with that feeling.

Because, every now and again, I'll be daydreaming in class about BDSM, and being dominated, and I'll get horny and I'll feel... oh, like, "please dominate me, please control me, I need to be controlled, I need to be dominated, please."

It's a good feeling.

You will be dissapoint! ...or perhaps not.

I struggle with communicating to my partners exactly the nuance of kink that I like. I can point to it when I see it, of course, but trying to explain what I want people to do to me is harder. (I think the best solution might just be to have a porn marathon, honestly. hotter and less work that way, right?)

Anyhow, this is not a post where I say I've figured it out. :p This is a post where I share a very sexy and vaguely kinky music video with y'all. In the event that youtube yanks it, it's the video for "Parachute" by Cheryl Cole.



The bit right around 0:30 is the vaguely kinky part. He totally grabs her and shoves her around, and it's so hot. The rest is just vanilla eye candy; Cheryl Cole, evidently, is extremely attractive!

Hmm

After watching this video, I feel a bit less apprehensive about having my whole self frozen. I like how the hypnotist in the video there doesn't try to humiliate her and lets her go almost right away ("oh hey, you're stuck; but look, when I touch your hands, you find that they're unstuck!"). And I mean, I love being tied up, so if we take baby steps I think I'll find myself getting more comfortable with a whole-body freeze.

Where to begin?

I must say that I truly don't expect anyone to read this, but on the offchance someone does, I shall keep updating. :p

I think I'll start at the beginning.

I am a hypnofetishist, born and bred.

Ever since I was little I have been intrigued by hypnosis/mind control, with a fascination for bondage on the side. I was born like this; it would be impossible for me to separate myself from it, and I certainly don't want to try. ;)

Exhibit A: Disney's Aladdin and The Jungle Book. Most of you will know what I'm talking about here... Kaa's only role in The Jungle Book is to hypnotize people to eat them (I'm sure the young vorephiles get off on that, too, actually), and Jafar's got a staff he uses to hypnotize the sultan, and there's a couple wonderful scenes at the end where Jasmine is either compelled to move around by magic or is chained up in harem gear. Lovely stuff.

Moving on from that, when I was 8 or 9 or so, I remember playing all kinds of games with one of my childhood friends which involved sleeping spells (I was obsessed with the idea of falling helplessly asleep) or I as the fiery maiden who got kidnapped and tied up. Ohh yeah.

I was hypnotized for real at the tender age of 13! There was a hypnosis stage show at the campground where my family was vacationing. I did not under any circumstances want to participate in the show (more on that another time), but the hypnotist explained that he was a bit different and would let the audience go under as well, so me and my family did. I suspect now that it was actually the usual "see who in the audience goes under and incorporate them into the show" thing, but more overt. In any case, the experience was more than a little frightening (in the good way), and thoroughly enjoyable.

A few years go by, and I began to make use of the family laptop to do high school homework. I never really wanted to write essays, so I'd waste time on the internet more often than not... I began by simply googling "hypnosis." Soon enough, I found the archive and was hooked. (had my first orgasm masturbating to this story, as a matter of fact. I'm such a pervert. :p)

More years go by, and I had a boyfriend, graduated from high school, etc. I didn't tell anyone about my particular interest in hypnosis, though I kept reading stories. Just stories, though, and an mp3 once in a while...I never tried to talk to anyone in the community or try to get 'tized by a person.

Enter my current boyfriend. Thanks to the wonder of the internet, I told him about my fetish in, what, our third conversation as a couple? And he was very receptive and not grossed out.

Fast forward a full year and two months later, though months of amazing chemistry and loads of vanilla sex. I had started to poke into the hypnofetish community, and was in an IRC channel and talking to my boyfriend at the same time. I brought up the idea of letting one of the 'tists in the channel hypnotize me, and we both agreed that we'd prefer if he did it.

So that's what we did, in April. We're still both pretty new to this, and we're taking baby steps, but god, are they awesome little things. I feel more happy and content as a hypnosub than I ever did as a vanilla girlfriend.


Thanks for reading all that, if you did. :p I'll try to make my future posts more bite-sized.