Time for a new post

(sorry that I've been so long between posts. I am finding that college is, in fact, more work that high school.)

So I'll admit, I'm an emotional person. I get frustrated rather easily, especially when it comes to trance. Some nights I'm just not in the right headspace, or my trigger hits me at the wrong angle, and when I come up I'll be angry and start ranting. Nauzy, who hates to see me in anything but orgasmic distress, likes to whisper "shhh, relaaax..." and I completely melt... I go under a bit, sometimes more effectively than when he uses my trigger when I'm ready for it.

I think it's a matter of how relatively relaxed I am. When I'm lying down, waiting for the order to go under, I'm pretty comfy and on the edge of trance anyways. When I'm agitated, it's entirely the opposite, so when I do go under, it feels deeper and easier.

I'm really not trying to psychoanalyze myself; it just feels good. :)

On to more things he can do in public, oh yes. You know, it's funny, I have never ever been an exhibitionist. I don't even like excessive PDA. But trance in public? Why yes, sign me right up.

Last night we were at Whole Foods, grabbing dinner together. We'd finished eating and were just talking, and inevitably it turned to how I love it when he does stuff that nobody else can see. And he switched on his Voice and down I went, sitting up, leaning on my hand. Beautiful. Restful too, though this time it was green-grey instead of blue. But deep enough to just drift.

What I love about playing in public is the... raciness of it. Nauzy said it himself one time: "I like doing things in public; I feel like I've gotten away with something." And so it is. Nobody notices, nobody cares, but we've done it. And it makes me squirm so.

It also helps that hypnosis is often more subtle than good old-fashioned exhibitionistic sex in public. ;p